After spending Saturday obsessing on things like the recent VN program update from our agency (travel time), finances, etc., I spent yesterday in my studio trying to chill out and put things into perspective. Since I have a hard time 'imagining' things will be okay, or even living for the moment, I did a few things that felt more tangible. New spreadsheet for travel expenses, re-reading anything and everything about the VN adoption laws, and getting some art done. And because I'm a visual kind of girl, I tied a red string on my wrist. It's a little thing but reminds me that we are doing the best that we can and are on a good path. It has calmed me down on the inside and that's a good thing (particularly for poor Hans). I guess I needed something 'on' me. I'm not pregnant but we are waiting.